Tuesday, November 9, 2010

I don't even know up from down anymore

I want to start out by saying: Don't judge me. I have alot of frustrations going on inside and I just need to get them out.

The days are flying by and I am getting NOTHING done. We've been in this house for over a month and I still have boxes that need to be unpacked -- & not the junk boxes -- Actual stuff like my kitchen glasses and my blender... But I just don't have the motivation. Felix has been a total handful lately. I try to keep the day packed for him to learn and to stay entertained at the same time but it also hinders stuff around here. I'm barely able to skim by and I don't like it at all. Before Felix this house was like a museum and I had to TRY to find stuff to do to fill my day and now I don't even feel like I'm enjoying them because I'm just trying to get through them...

I need to set goals. I need to make a chart and just try to get stuff accomplished for 1 week. I think I'm going to do that. Small, simple, starter steps.

I had the stomach bug for 3 days and it sucked. Worst I have felt in FOREVER! I think Felix had a touch of it at the same time as I did so that made it hard on both of us. ((I know this post just sounds like a big pity me post but it's not I swear. I know I'll just feel better if I just get this all out...)) Lorenzo has it today. He kissed me last night and than today he walked it at 9am and told me I gave him the kiss of death. I'm not a dementor from Harry Potter...

Call of Duty: Black Ops came out today. That officially means NO more husband for at least a week. I can't complain though, he rarely plays.

Felix's first birthday is just around the corner and I don't feel like I've planned accordingly. I don't have invite and I don't have decorations or anything. I hate being so unorganized. I have a friend who will make his cake and other than that I've got nothing LOL. I think this weekend I'm going to Party City and I'm going to get everything that I need.

Oh crap and that reminds me that his party will be AFTER Thanksgiving and I don't have anything planned for that either... CRAP. Gotta start making my list for that too.

See what I mean about being a scatter-brain. There is just SO much going on. I will stay more connected though! Bare with me.

30 Days of Me: Day 2

Day 02 - Your Favorite Movie

I have always said that "Fools Rush In" was my favorite movie of all time. I don't know why. I guess because I understand the differences of an interracial relationship that 'I just get it'...I dunno. I really like the acting and everything and in my opinion it's a good story line.

However, last week I watched Julie & Julia. Didn't like the movie at all. But I get it... She found herself. It took her until she was 30 to finally understand herself and find something to get her through the days. I sort of feel the same way. Since having Felix I feel like my days are sooo rushed. I have a million things to do at the end of the day that I wanted to get accomplished. I never set any goals for myself anymore, I live to serve this house. I love my husband and my kid and the life that we have but I don't do anything for me anymore and I don't like that. I wish that I had something set everyday so that I could really accomplish it and be proud of myself. I have to find what that would be though. For Julie it was getting through the cookbook in a year. Who knows what it will be for me?